Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Even the dreariest of days...

I woke today to the sound of little footsteps. The size 9er's wandered to my bedside and as I pulled the comforter over to make room, I noticed my husband was already up. I pulled my sweet Sophie Grace in bed to cuddle a couple of minutes when I recalled a promise to Bella that I would curl her hair for school pictures. Which is beyond comprehension, since she already has incredible wavy locks, and the thought of them alone make me chuckle. It's interesting, human nature is most often to want what we don't have; more money, smaller thighs, a better car, and yes even curls! But as the thoughts and images rolled briefly through my head I was reminded one more time that God has blessed me abundantly. I smiled, grabbed Soph and meandered downstairs to find my wonderful husband trying to hush the two canine maniacs, otherwise known as Zeke and Dory.

As soon as I saw him, my Marty, there was a hush in my soul. The Good Lord placed it there for good reason. It is one year ago this month that my husband and I seperated for one final time, with the intention of divorce. The girls and I packed and left our home in New Orleans on way to Louisville, Ky. God has blessed me to overcome many things over the years, but that was a time that tried even the strongest part of my heart. I silenced my mind and diligently worked to see everyone off this morning and run a couple of errands. All the while, listening to complaints about the dreariness of the day.

Shortly after coming back home, I sat for a few minutes of reflection. I remembered a scripture God brought to my attention over and over the past year; Mark 10:27 NIV "...With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God." All these years, married, I had hoped and prayed for my husand's salvation. I have seen God allow miracles in my life in so many ways. For starters the rescue of my youngest child's life, twice, and through my father's death. I have known Him personally for many years and known the possibilities, but after so long, I began to doubt that my husband's salvation would be something I would see as his wife. I wanted to, with all my heart, but it didn't seem to be in the cards and for the first time I began to accept it. I was ready to turn over my marriage and admit defeat. While God comforted me in my decision and calmed my soul, He had other plans. Jeremiah 29:11 NIV "For I know the plans I have for you...plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." So in typical divine fashion and unbeknownest to me, the Good Lord was preparing my groom. God was calling his name with great clarity and on a cold, winter day, my beloved finally answered.

It is in simple moments each day, even in grey, wet form like this one that my heart waits with every beat, the Lord by my side, for my new husband to come home. Days like this remind me of Psalm 37:4 NIV "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."

With every drop of rain I am reminded that He has not forsaken me or you, that with God all things are possible; doors open and mountains move!

~Psalm 145: 1-3 NIV "I will exalt you, my God the King; I will praise your name for ever and ever. Every day I will praise you and extol your name for ever and ever. Great is the Lord and most worthy of praise; his greatness no one can fathom." ~


  1. Betsy,

    How encouraging and what confirmation! God had just given me the scripture in Jeremiah. You are such a blessing! I so enjoy reading your blog and remember you daily in my prayers. God is good!

    Love you,

    Tammy in Louisville

  2. Wow! Now here's a post I really identify with. I'm married to an unbelieving man for 15 years. I too continue to pray though some days I feel like nothing's changing. God always reminds me of what He's done for me, and when He does that I always say in tears, "Your worth it Jesus. Your worth me showing you my love in faithfulness to my husband and in interceding for Him if it takes 50 years!"

    Bless you!

  3. I loved the Scripture you shared, and give a resounding "Amen" to what you wrote, "With every drop of rain I am reminded that He has not forsaken me or you, that with God all things are possible; doors open and mountains move!" I'm so glad your story had a happy ending! Praise God for restoring your marriage.

  4. You are so right...God can do anything. I remember my mom taking me and my sister to church for so long and my dad never going. Then something tugged at him and he went and he ended up getting saved and even though our family life was fine it was so much better once he was saved. I am so glad that God has worked in Mart's life and that you two are doing so well. I am *so* happy for you. (((((hugs)))))

  5. I have been lifted by your music and story. You are not alone in your story. Many of us could tell the same tale of wandering off the path of life drifting from God's perfect will.

    Your selfless journey led you back. I too am grateful that I did not let self make me a miserable person. We can sing with the sparrows now. For we have come in to his presence with thanksgiving and appreciation for what he has given.

    You are fearfully and wonderfully made. It is good to see you proclaim that by the side of your family with God at the head.

    I am just loving this music. Let me stay awhile and listen. Having my own little praise session here.

  6. I just posted for "falling for Jesus" come see what the Lord has been up 2 in my life.

  7. Yes, with our Lord, all things are possible. Thank you for the reminder that even when we are werary and give up on ourselves, we should never give up on Him.
    Beautiful post.

  8. A beautiful post....a great story.

    Thanks for sharing,

  9. What a sweet story. The same power that raised Christ from the dead can resurrect a dead marriage.

  10. Oh what a powerful story of HOPE and the faithfulness of our God.

    Thanks for sharing this testimony.

    I'm from New Orleans. (Living in BR now).

    So nice to meet you♥

  11. I love your post. It was very encouraging. Isn't God good and trustworthy.....we can place our worries in His hands & He will take care of them.

    What a great testimony!