Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Happy Birthday Bella!

10 years! It just doesn't seem possible! Last night when I went to bed I peaked at Bella, and although she is 20 times the size, she is still that little girl that was born screaming. Her face still looks the same. She still has the same dimple and she still has that incredible light about her.

Right now, Bella's mattress is on the floor in my room. Sophie's room is so cold this winter that I put her bed in my room, so it only seemed fair to make it an event for them both. Anyway, you know that moment just before you wake up some mornings. When there is no alarm blaring at you, or child poking at you - when you just slowly wake to conciousness on your own, this was one of those mornings. It was so nice, I didn't hear a thing. I rolled over to pull my comforter up a bit and debate whether I could just take a couple more minutes. Well, as my eyes slowed to an open point, I felt the pull to look in one direction. As I gently patted the blanket down to look over it I caught the "pull" - Bella. The entire time I lay there waking, she was staring at me, like a hawk. Waiting with baited breath to see if I would rise so that her birthday could begin. When she noticed that I saw her, a huge grin took over her face and she waved from her corner with such enthusiam that even a circus clown would be impressed. I laughed. And as I pulled myself to the sitting position, I took stalk of this beautiful child that was walking over to me. She is something else. A phenominal work of art. Nothing short of that. Yes, she has her moments, but just like any priceless piece her colors change depending on the light shed on them, and her nuances reflect differently each time she is held, and as time passes I am seeing things I didn't see earlier. I know she is growing and that she will continue to change before my eyes. It is not possible to express just how privilaged I am to be "mom" to this child. Life with Bella is constant, life with Bella is entertaining, life with Bella is exhausting, but a life without my Bella, well, that's no life at all.

Happy Birthday Bella!! I hope this year brings to you great joy and a walk that will enable your spirit!!!! I love you beautiful girl!!!!!! More then you will ever know!!

~I love Bella, yes I do
I love Bella, how 'bout you
when you meet her you will see
She is the best big girl there could ever be!~
(circa - 2001)

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